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MageMage posted:Well, when you are younger, you have illusions of grandeur. You think things are going to turn out a certain way, but they don't. You wait your whole life for more and more steps to try and attain something that never be attained. I feel like even if I get surgery, it's just going to be an inverted penis, and at that point there is nothing left. The illusion is gone, "the tranny" will always stick, you know what I mean? It's not a vagina, it never will be. I wish I could offer you more than just my differing view point as help but I don't know what to say. Yes, I'll always have "the tranny" with me, but I honestly don't care. V  V
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DeadlyMuffin posted:Also, the Transgender Law Center has a lot of resources on changing ID, although their driver's license stuff seems to be California centered. http://transgenderlawcenter.org/cms/ TLC is predominately California based so they're really helpful for that state, maybe not so much others. Worst case you could try asking them if they know of any trans-resources in your neck of the woods. Duet fucked around with this message at Nov 9, 2011 around 17:04 |
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Duet posted:TLC is predominately California based so they're really helpful for that state, maybe not so much others. Worst case you could try asking them if they know of any trans-resources in your neck of the woods.
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Plom Bar posted:You're absolutely wonderful. I'm gonna second that statement. :P And since all the cool kids are doing it, I'm a 25-year old transwoman from Alberta who after much denial decided I wasn't getting younger and have decided to go for it. Got my first appointment with a therapist this Saturday, so I'm hoping to get started pretty quick! I'm very lucky that I've come out (or was found out) to nearly all my friends, and they've all been totally supportive and helpful with clothes, makeup, listening to me bitch, etc. Slowly starting the process of coming out to my family; right now it's just my mom and my aunt, and they've been cautiously supportive and extremely helpful respectively. My biggest concerns moving forward are dragging myself out there and becoming more comfortable with myself in public, and how to balance transition and a fledgling career in education.
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Hhhiii I lurked the other thread a bit, but I figured I might as well just intro. I'm a cischick who's dating a recently-announced transchick. Our relationship is going pretty well, but I might pop up in here to see if there are any new ways I can support her/get help for any problems that might arise. We've been together for 4 years and I want to be there for her in any way possible during her transition. 
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Well, screw that 'waiting until Friday to come out' thing. Just posted the letter to all my friends.  Intro: 22 years old, androgynous FtM I suppose, living in Arizona (oh god get me out of this horrible place). Working towards chest surgery and name change, but no plans for HRT or anything else. Been lurking the TMTs since January 2010 and, drama aside, some of your posts have really helped me out a lot.
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WrathofKhan posted:I mostly lurk here, but I should probably introduce myself. I'm a 34 year old bi cischick living in Arizona. I met Sudden Consequences via a online play by post game a couple of years ago, back when she was still presenting as male. I actually wondered if she was trans awhile before she said anything, but that is another story You're just happy about "having called it".  But I just wanted to say that Khan is awesome and if you're in the area you should totally take her up on her offer!
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Welp I guess everyone else is doing it. Hi everyone I'm Kryss a 43 year old 6'4" amazon of a T-girl in portland, pre hrt, pre girl-mode, etc, but I have been portraying a female online for many years so its not like im pre EVERYTHING  I've spent a long time thinking about gender, but my psych is kinda wishy washy on starting HRT so I've already gone ahead and ordered some online, and couldn't be more excited to start as soon as they arrive 
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Hey, I'm Ian, a 26yo gay FtM in Toronto. I've been on T for 2.5 years, and had a hysterectomy a year ago. I'm currently trying to jump through CAMH's hoops to get chest surgery covered by OHIP.
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O'riginal posted:
The craziest thing about that is wouldn't male hormones actually make acne worse? I had noticeable acne for years (probably would have until I was 30 due to genetics), and female hormones were the only thing that ever cleared me up. Anyhow i guess I can do the  thing and reintroduce myself:I'm a 23yo trans woman currently in north Alabama. Moving to Seattle tomorrow though so you won't have a resident Alabama trans goon anymore. I've been full time for over a year and haven't looked back. Getting SRS in Q2 of next year. OP: If you want to add me to the superfriends I accept PMs. I don't really know much about the Seattle area, but if anybody needs some help in the Alabama area (god help them) I can probably point them in the right direction.
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AbsoluteLlama posted:The craziest thing about that is wouldn't male hormones actually make acne worse? I had noticeable acne for years (probably would have until I was 30 due to genetics), and female hormones were the only thing that ever cleared me up. Same here, HRT completely cleared up my face. Sorry about all the poo poo that's happened to you O'riginal 
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AbsoluteLlama posted:I'm a 23yo trans woman currently in north Alabama. Moving to Seattle tomorrow though so you won't have a resident Alabama trans goon anymore. I've been full time for over a year and haven't looked back. Getting SRS in Q2 of next year. Sure you will. I'm still here in central AL and won't be moving for several years at least. I probably won't be a great deal of help due to just recently starting out though. I'm Mira, 22 years, MtF. My AIM account is in my profile. I'd also like to help with local activism, but don't know any groups yet. That's something to research soon. Edit: I totally put that AIM up earlier and didn't slack off for days Miracon fucked around with this message at Nov 18, 2011 around 17:28 |
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Woo congrats AbsoluteLlama, Seattle is awesome!
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Is there anyone on here that I could PM about tucking (specifically someone who's tried tucking before HRT?) I've got a couple of questions and I'd rather not run the risk of rubbing someone in the thread the wrong way.
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Spindrift posted:Is there anyone on here that I could PM about tucking (specifically someone who's tried tucking before HRT?) I've got a couple of questions and I'd rather not run the risk of rubbing someone in the thread the wrong way.
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AbsoluteLlama posted:The craziest thing about that is wouldn't male hormones actually make acne worse? I had noticeable acne for years (probably would have until I was 30 due to genetics), and female hormones were the only thing that ever cleared me up. Kiwi Ghost Chips posted:Same here, HRT completely cleared up my face. Sorry about all the poo poo that's happened to you O'riginal Firstly: I am quite jealous, Llama! Seattle ... I miss it so. O'riginally from Snoqualmie, Washington (the mountains), now in Minneapolis. Secondly: thanks to both of you. I did wonder just why in the hell my zits got so bad since I was swallowing all those pills ... but, typical head-up-my-rear end, never expressed curiosity. And really .. I didn't have it all that hard.
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AbsoluteLlama posted:Moving to Seattle tomorrow though so you won't have a resident Alabama trans goon anymore. Wow, that'll be a change. It's awesome here. Welcome to Trans Central USA.
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Lexical Unit posted:There's also a FREE, EASY program to help with your voice. I haven't used it myself, but MageMage says that it's better than human advice. Try it for like 6 weeks and see if it helps: Voicetutor. I glassed over this when it was mentioned, but I can confirm that that program works very well. I used the audio exercise CD (titled "Finding Your Female Voice") she made and it really gets the point across if you pay careful attention and do what she is describing. It's on iTunes for $10, but it's a little lacking in instruction since it's meant to accompany the DVD that does most of the talking. The DVD she has helps with explaining certain things, and while I realize there's tons of free info on this topic online, if you're willing to pay $25 for it you probably won't regret the purchase. All the stuff at the link and PDF workbook is free, but I'd at least recommend the audio exercises, personally. Spindrift fucked around with this message at Nov 9, 2011 around 09:03 |
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'Lo all, I'm Cheryl, and I'm an asexual, homoromantic MtF transsexual (fun combo ). Currently live in Bum-gently caress Nowhere, Maryland, so it's been pretty lovely trying to get everything started, not to mention somewhat nerve-wracking, since this isn't exactly the most liberal area out there. That said, at this point, they could kill me for all I care if it means actually having a chance at actually being happy for once in six years. On that note, next week I'll be heading down to Philly to get the initial blood tests needed to get hormones, since my last appointment had to be rescheduled. Hopefully everything will come out right, but at the moment I'm just loving happy to be actually getting somewhere. Miijhal fucked around with this message at Nov 9, 2011 around 11:40 |
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I should probably make an appearance in this thread after i made an rear end of myself in the last one. I'm a 19 year old pre everything mtf. I figured out i was trans at 12 and first told my mum at 14 who then proceeded to dismiss my feelings as nothing, because of course she knows me better then i know myself. She also instilled in me the absolute need not to tell my sister or dad, because it would be embarrassing for me (of course she meant for herself). Two days later it was as if i hadn't told her a thing and she refused to acknowledge it. I tried coming out again in letters (Which she answered with complete silence) and once one night when i was in tears, but of course i was wrong and she knew that i was a boy. I then decided that i would bury my feelings temporally, as best i could until i had finished school, so i could have the marks to go to university for a degree i don't actually have any real interest in. I now spend my time switching between trying to figure out just how hosed i am in the potential pass-ability department and thinking of an efficient, painless and quick way to kill myself. Scattered throughout this are feelings of self doubt and moments of "maybe it's not so bad". Anyway, i have my first therapy appointment on the 24th so hopefully i don't continue feeling this way.
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In case you missed it, last night a new UK show started on Channel 4: My Transsexual Summer
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Caryna posted:In case you missed it, last night a new UK show started on Channel 4: My Transsexual Summer It's awful and buys into the same tired tropes of transsexual documentaries, despite the production company and transmediawatch's assurances.
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There's a lot of talk about how each person did this or that to "become" a woman or "become" a man. Over and over again. Plus a pretty likely staged scene where a hotel clerk pointedly calls one of the women "sir." The only redeemable part, I thought, was the surgeon pointing out that GRS isn't "just a cosmetic surgery" at best or butchery at worst, that it vastly improves the quality of life for those who need it in most cases.
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LemonLimeTime posted:That's an extremely grim way of looking at it and I'm sure most transwomen would agree. Well I feel alienated. Maybe ever transwomen shouldn't feel like that, but I don't know how to feel that way without it coming off as grim to others. merrilyx4 posted:I can completely relate to the whole "I'll never really be a girl" feeling. It drove me to swallowing a bunch of pills and booze once; and though I have a pretty decent handle on my emotions now, I still get those pangs of hopelessness. I also haven't had SRS yet and I've only been on HRT for two years. Like a phantom itch that drives you crazy, these thoughts gently caress with your head: "I'll never have the pleasure of a real vagina; I can never bear children, therefore I'm a fake woman; I'll always have to take these loving blue pills..."; etc. I hope you find your prince. You make a really good point. Even though I feel my existence is poo poo, deep down, I DO make other people happy, sometimes. I know it must hurt for you to bring it up, but thank you for telling me. I've taken massive amounts of hormones on separate occasions. Maybe it's some kind of Dr. Jekly and Mrs. Hyde condition. Although instead of turning into Mrs. Hyde I puke up a lot of white foam and bile. I switched to intra-muscular estrogen so I could never be tempted to do something so stupid, and I've felt much healthier about it. I live in BF nowhere, so I get my meds from inhousepharmacy. It's probably not the best way to do it, but I do have a prescription, get it watched by a doctor, and test my blood and organs regularly. I recorded myself doing it, as a way of reinforcing all the courage I've had to go through, and for some local transwomen who were curious of it. The look on my face when I put in the needle makes me cringe. I look like a completely different person. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9RGZ1u-Ct7A Although with the way that I feel about myself, I come off as a strong person. Lexical Unit posted:I just recently had SRS and I don't really have that feeling of "it's just going to be an inverted penis". I mean sure, it's not a natal vagina and I'll never have a natal vagina, but it is a vagina. I've tried very hard in my life not to have illusions of grandeur about anything. When I started HRT it was with the idea that, "maybe this will help a little bit but if not I can always stop." When I decided to get SRS it was a calculated decision based on a number of factors; I didn't get it in any sort of attempt to "complete" my life or "attain" womanhood. I have heard and read really good things about successful surgery. I do need at as a feeling of wholeness, because right now I feel like there is a mound of flesh in the way of what is supposed to be there; supposed to make the journey of life much more comfortable, even if it isn't perfect. I like men, but I can only be comfortable with men to an extent. It feels like there is a piece of man attached to me, that, if not repressed, will get hard and aggressive. I feel like there is something attached to me that on a rare occasion, is like, "I need you to submit to me now". Yeah, it's exactly what I am talking about, and I don't like it. I feel from what I've observed in my life, the quality of result is based on the confidence of the patient of the doctor whom is performing the surgery. Does that make sense? And if I feel like if I don't obtain it soon, I will lose that chance. I'm not narcissistic, but I want things to go perfectly. The only way I know that for sure, is based on the confidence by what I've researched.... I think I am completely sane for feeling this way, right? This is how a woman with this kind of physical problem is supposed to feel, right? Can I ask what conditions were right for you? You don't have to answer _at all_. Lexical Unit posted:I wish I could offer you more than just my differing view point as help but I don't know what to say. Yes, I'll always have "the tranny" with me, but I honestly don't care. V If you could offer me a great piece of advice, how can one "not care" anymore?
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The bit in that documentary that shocked me most wasn't the way trans people were stereotyped for entertainment but rather the quick clip at the end of one of them at a job interviewer where the interviewers were discussing how you could 'always tell' because of the adams apple and other tripe. The rest was also garbage but that bit upset me most.
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MageMage posted:Well I feel alienated. Maybe ever transwomen shouldn't feel like that, but I don't know how to feel that way without it coming off as grim to others. I don't feel like it's unrealistic to have the concern you expressed and I also don't feel like Lemon should speak for us, either. Spindrift fucked around with this message at Nov 10, 2011 around 00:20 |
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Teabiscuit posted:The bit in that documentary that shocked me most wasn't the way trans people were stereotyped for entertainment but rather the quick clip at the end of one of them at a job interviewer where the interviewers were discussing how you could 'always tell' because of the adams apple and other tripe. The rest was also garbage but that bit upset me most. Ugh, did they really say that? As a transgirl with an enormous Adam's apple nothing makes me madder than people pointing it out. I honestly don't know what I'm going to do about it once I start presenting female.
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MageMage posted:
That seems like a REALLY complicated way to do your shot especially considering you have a doctor's prescription? Why can't you just order E vials and not have to cut the glass off of peanut oil vials and pour them unsanitarily through the air into a syringe?
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quiggy posted:Ugh, did they really say that? As a transgirl with an enormous Adam's apple nothing makes me madder than people pointing it out. I honestly don't know what I'm going to do about it once I start presenting female. Here's the lovely clip of it http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7jan...e=youtube_gdata
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Marshmallow Mayhem posted:That seems like a REALLY complicated way to do your shot especially considering you have a doctor's prescription? Why can't you just order E vials and not have to cut the glass off of peanut oil vials and pour them unsanitarily through the air into a syringe? I have a lot of them and no income. Only compound pharmacies make them here. It's complicated but, I gotta do it, I just don't have any other options. I got these vials a long time ago when I did have an income, because I had the chance I am so scared of running out. I have County Medical Insurance, but they do not pay for injections, and my body does not appreciate pills at all. I feel I am doing it as safely as possible with what I have, and it could be a lot worse. I was thinking about selling it all and gently caress off to San Francisco but then I thought, "I'm going to find bigotry no matter where I go, will San Francisco be any different?". What I feel is, SF is a giant melting pot, and people can be bigots anywhere. What makes San Francisco any different? I actually thought about "What kind of worth can someone have as a tranny down in The City. Well, I could strip at a tranny strip joint, or work at the tranny restaurant. There it is, that is the big "acceptance" that can be had as the kind of person you are in the city. I would do it but hell, what exactly is there in the city besides that? The bearded lady can't make a buck these days. Yeah, maybe it might be easier to be a bank teller or a barista or janitor, but can it really be considered an opportunity just because it is available in an area that is "more accepting"? To a lot of people, it is a stereotype that San Francisco is THE place to be if you are any at all queer. Is that really true? I've visited numerous times, I lived there for a little while actually, but unless I was looking completely in the wrong direction, it was difficult to find acceptance in the first place. Was I doing something wrong? Do I have to preen the Castro district? Because I'd rather not.... MageMage fucked around with this message at Nov 10, 2011 around 01:15 |
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MageMage posted:I have a lot of them and no income. Only compound pharmacies make them here. It's complicated but, I gotta do it, I just don't have any other options. I got these vials a long time ago when I did have an income, because I had the chance I am so scared of running out. I have County Medical Insurance, but they do not pay for injections, and my body does not appreciate pills at all. I feel I am doing it as safely as possible with what I have, and it could be a lot worse. Los Angeles/San Francisco is buttloads better than middle of knowhere for trans acceptance and services, I'll tell you that. Location DOES matter. I don't know how you missed that you don't have to be in weHo or the Castro to see it.
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Noreaus posted:It's awful and buys into the same tired tropes of transsexual documentaries, despite the production company and transmediawatch's assurances. Showcase SHODAN posted:There's a lot of talk about how each person did this or that to "become" a woman or "become" a man. Over and over again. Pretty much this, I watched it last night and rolled my eyes and how stereotypical some of the people came across there. The girls there were irritatingly vacuous quite often, to the point where my mother, who is trying her damnedest to support me after what I've told her I'd be doing, essentially asked "You don't want to be like that, do you?". For me the most cringe-worthy scene was when they went out to the bar and some random dude (TOTALLY NOT STAGED) started 'hitting' on one of the transmen in the group before he got shooed off by a transwoman asking him to sleep with her instead. Hahahaha, get it guys? It's funny because having a transwoman offer to have sex with you is the most humiliating thing a man can go through!!! Thing is, though, I can identify with some of the issues brought up, mainly the girl who had very recently come out (Sarah) and had been taken under that blonde girl's (Drew I think) 'wing'. During the show, Sarah (who wasn't on HRT) made the comment that she felt like 'the worst transexual ever' because she looked so mannish and was basically not very convincing as a woman. This is basically the reason why I don't want to be forced to go through the 'gender experience' time period without any HRT. I really don't think it's right to force a transperson to traumatise themselves by dangling HRT as a carrot. MageMage: Have you thought about dermal patches? I don't know about the US but here in the UK they're quite common for HRT (I'm not sure about transgender HRT, though) and are often prescribed as the preferred method of administering E due to its simplicity, gradual intake and convenience.
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quiggy posted:Ugh, did they really say that? As a transgirl with an enormous Adam's apple nothing makes me madder than people pointing it out. I honestly don't know what I'm going to do about it once I start presenting female. Doesn't FFS cover that? Or was that some other kind of surgery? I know it's not impossible to handle.
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They should do SRS without anesthesia, if you don't wanna go through that pain you are clearly not trans enough.
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Miracon posted:Doesn't FFS cover that? Or was that some other kind of surgery? I know it's not impossible to handle. Loretta Trampface fucked around with this message at Nov 10, 2011 around 02:41 |
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Isn't a tracheal shave (relatively) cheap?
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Teabiscuit posted:Here's the lovely clip of it I appreciate the link but there's no way in hell I'm watching that. I feel lovely enough about my neck as-is. Kiwi Ghost Chips posted:Isn't a tracheal shave (relatively) cheap? I'd really like to know an answer to this; maybe I'd be able to get one soonish. My god my Adam's apple is just so huge 
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