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'Lo all, I'm Cheryl, and I'm an asexual, homoromantic MtF transsexual (fun combo  ). Currently live in Bum-gently caress Nowhere, Maryland, so it's been pretty lovely trying to get everything started, not to mention somewhat nerve-wracking, since this isn't exactly the most liberal area out there. That said, at this point, they could kill me for all I care if it means actually having a chance at actually being happy for once in six years.On that note, next week I'll be heading down to Philly to get the initial blood tests needed to get hormones, since my last appointment had to be rescheduled. Hopefully everything will come out right, but at the moment I'm just loving happy to be actually getting somewhere. Miijhal fucked around with this message at Nov 9, 2011 around 11:40 |
| # ¿ Nov 9, 2011 11:27 |
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| # ¿ May 21, 2013 21:33 |
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Plutoidmoon posted:I now spend my time switching between trying to figure out just how hosed i am in the potential pass-ability department and thinking of an efficient, painless and quick way to kill myself. Scattered throughout this are feelings of self doubt and moments of "maybe it's not so bad". Oioioi. I can certainly relate. Just keep in mind that it does get better, and you're actually starting off at a pretty good time. If nothing else, don't lose hope. Also, your support is much appreciated, Shodan. 
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| # ¿ Nov 10, 2011 04:01 |
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Welp, my blood test is today. Much as blood and needles freak me out, I'm pretty drat excited.UUriffic posted:This is the most recent picture of me at around 170. Bodywise, how likely do you think I could pass? You're definitely not going to have much trouble there. Hell, you've already got the figure going. SuddenConsequences posted:Yeeeaaah about that... the hair is coloured and I'm wearing make-up. Good work on the makeup. It looks completely natural.
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| # ¿ Nov 15, 2011 12:50 |
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Welp, I'm kind of a giddy bitch at the moment. Just got my prescription for hormone blockers.  Redwolf posted:I appreciate what you are saying, and there is an amazing level of support from very generous and kind people here. I don't want to be such a negative presence, I know it isn't particularly helpful or productive and I am sure it must be a tiring thing for people to read over and over again. I'm just tired and overwhelmed, I have been for so so long and there never seems to be any respite, and i'm not sure I have it in me to keep struggling uphill for who knows how many more years. Admittedly, 'It gets better' isn't an absolute truth. I do think, though, that for most individuals, there is a point where things start to piece together, and that it's worth slogging through some lovely times to get to them. It's something I kind of wish I realized back when I was feeling completely, utterly hopeless because I couldn't figure out where to start from where I was. Can't say I you don't have a reason for feeling how you do, though. That said, I really do hope things improve for you, and I hope its worth everything you've been through an more.
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| # ¿ Nov 16, 2011 00:33 |
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SleepySonata posted:Coming out to parents? Had to be done sooner or later. Ain't it a bitch? I still haven't come out to my brother or my grandmother, and I'm already on anti-androgens, and will probably be starting estrogen this month. I really haven't a clue how I'm going to tell them.
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| # ¿ Dec 9, 2011 12:03 |
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Miracon posted:You might take the route that I'm going to take, and say "I don't want to be a guy" instead of 'I want to be a girl". Miracon posted:I say going to take, because I haven't actually done it yet. I'm going to do it this week. See you then, it'll be fun!!
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| # ¿ Dec 10, 2011 18:49 |
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Cherrywood posted:Why do some trans people want to live in "stealth"? Not being murdered can be nice.
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| # ¿ Dec 10, 2011 23:21 |
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psyopmonkey posted:Would you take a magic pill that makes you "not trans" if such a thing existed?
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| # ¿ Dec 12, 2011 01:34 |
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Welp, just got my prescription for hormones. gently caress yesss. Anyway, in terms of the whole 'autogynephilia' thing, while there are people who do fetishize being the opposite sex, I don't think the idea behind autogynephilia really holds, especially what with transvestic fetishism already covering people who are sexually excited by being perceived as the opposite sex. As for how to tell whether you're trans or not... therein lies the rub. There isn't really a (non-retarded) questionnaire you can fill out to figure out what you are. You're going to have to do some soul searching. That said, an important question to ask yourself is whether you can live a reasonably happy life being the sex you currently are for the rest of your life. If you think you can, then you're probably best off not taking the long and painful route of transitioning.
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| # ¿ Dec 20, 2011 23:16 |
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Cityinthesea posted:me and my mom were in the car, alone, dropping my dad off for his band practice, and when we were driving back, she said "i see they're growing in" and I was confused and asked her what she meant, and she said "your boobies" See, it's moments like that that make me not want to talk about it with my parents. Seeing my mother tear up and ask "DO YOU REALLY WANT BOOBS?" is... agh. 
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| # ¿ Dec 22, 2011 11:18 |
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quiggy posted:
It really is, though. Staff is friendly as all gently caress, too.
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| # ¿ Dec 28, 2011 22:18 |
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I have spiro!
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Welp, I've been on hormones for a month now and I've yet to have my liver implode, nor have I been dragged into the firey pits of hell or died nor had blood bubble from my eyes, so so far, things seem to be going pretty well. Honestly don't feel much different, otherwise, though I guess there isn't really much one can expect in a single month. Anyway, I've been wanting to start to transition to more androgynous clothing than I currently wear, but I honestly don't have much of a clue where to start. I could really use some general advice on what to look for to look a bit more androgynous without standing out too much.
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| # ¿ Feb 16, 2012 23:29 |
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Caseus Maximus posted:Wife visits my therapist with me today. I'm glad to hear the people around you are supportive. It's a great thing to have. Gorean BBQ posted:People can't choose to be gay or straight, if you want to transition into a woman you are going to have to realize that your wife probably isn't going to ever be okay with that, no matter how many books she reads or therapy session she attends, because she is presumably straight and attracted to a man. It's not her fault any more than it's yours for being trans or gay or whatever. Love is an interesting thing. While we may not be able to decide our sexualities, once you love someone, and you've been with them for so long, it's hard to just let them go. Relationships have actually survived this. It may not work out, but it's not an absolute, and they're probably best off seeing how things go before just breaking off.
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| # ¿ Feb 23, 2012 18:34 |
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Kakumei posted:I just passed my three-month mark and still not a whole lot has happened. Patience is key! Same here. It's been pretty uneventful so far. A few changes that aren't really noticeable at all, my acne cleared up, and my mood's gotten a bit more stable since I started them. Teabiscuit posted:Am I a bad person If I achieve stealth and stop caring if people think i'll always be a dude because the only way they would find out im trans would be if they inspected my junk. I really can't imagine giving a gently caress anymore unless I somehow fell in love with a dude who thought that (unlikely) Miijhal fucked around with this message at Apr 11, 2012 around 02:35 |
| # ¿ Apr 11, 2012 02:33 |
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Y'know, I should probably be offended and all from SizeMatter's posts, but I just can't get over the fact that they write like a professional crazy person. Where to they learn to write like that? Anyway, six months on hormones now. A while back I said I wasn't noticing any emotional changes, but when I look back on it now, I've realized that I haven't had panic attacks nearly as frequently as I was before, my anxiety in general has become less of an issue, and my mood's actually picked up quite a bit. Things are actually going pretty good now. Miijhal fucked around with this message at Jun 6, 2012 around 22:29 |
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I'd imagine you're taking hormone blockers as well, right? Just taking estrogen would do little except destroy the gently caress out of your liver. Also totally got called "Ma'am" last week so I'm feeling pretty  lately.
Miijhal fucked around with this message at Feb 24, 2013 around 13:29 |
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| # ¿ May 21, 2013 21:33 |
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Vaginal Phrenology posted:Yeah I'm on all sorts of spiro and finasteride, my levels seem to fluctuate quite a bit. Today was the first jab so i'm off the e pills now and kinda wondering how my levels/day to day experience of things will go. And yeah, my biggest problem is just that sense of isolation when you can't really be true to yourself. I try not to focus too much on my body, if not always successfully.
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