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I'll try to explain as much as I can; I met a girl on tinder, it was a lot of fun on our first date, we actually ended up having sex the first night, she said she never met anyone like me, the second time we hang out, she was cracking jokes about kids and a family in which I thought it was a red flag, but chose to ignore it cuts she seemed pretty cool and nice, she was quiet, seemed shy, looked away immediately every time I looked her in the eyes, we ended up having a personal conversation about the drugs we've done and all the sorts, she said she actually picked up smoking cigarettes all the loving time cus she had to stop drinking alcohol cus she drank it religiously all day every day non stop knowing full well kidney failure runs in her family Well, little did I know, by the time we hung out the second time, everyone she knew knew about me, and about literally everything I've told her, all of this was another red flag, the third time we hung out, she ended up telling me she was in a 7 year relationship with a fiance that left her for his best friend who is a girl, and that her boyfriend after that left her and did a bunch of hosed up poo poo that honestly she aGreed to happen, I told her both my best friends are girls, and literally everything changed from then on She's black btw, so after knowing this about me, of course everyone who she talks to finds out, family too, and every time we were out she would question every little thing I did to see if I'm trying to cheat, keep in mind, it's only been 3 weeks, and it was my fourth time seeing her in person, well, when all this happened, she's been talking about spending every single day with me and all the works, and I put my foot down telling her she was rushing everything pretty quickly and that I didn't feel too comfortable about it, she started freaking out saying she feels something between us and doesn't want it to end and all this crazy poo poo and come to find out.. her parents were gonna put her in a homeless shelter, I was living with my coworkers at the time and well.. I just felt really loving bad for her man idk what to say about that.. she practically guilt tripped me into letting her come stay with me... and things just got worse from there. So only knowing her for a month, she was pretty chill the first couple days, though, she doesn't have a job, and at the time she did have any food stamp cards or ways to feed herself, so I was spending a poo poo ton of money to feed both of us, her jealousy was getting worse as well, she would just try to bucket and argue about stupid poo poo and then try to make seem like I'm trying to gently caress my best friends when they don't even live in the same state as me or each other, and would constantly try to start a show in public, all I can say is, She's really cool and fun to talk to when it's just the two of us, but she 180's every time some else is in the picture or if we're in public.. the biggest turn off for me was that she's severely clingy, i love independence and she doesn't accept that at all, what's worse, because of all this, I have to go back to Massachusetts because I wasted so much money on us just trying to live and dates and poo poo, and when I told her this one on one she insisted on going with me and told me how she would find a job and everything would change and she would help me with everything, and stupid me.. I agreed cus.. idk man I like her a lot, and it seemed like a good idea, but then.. everything just kept getting worse, I'm not gonna say it's her fault, I'm at fault for so much poo poo here, but, two weeks later, her jealousy was through the roof, she wouod constantly try to argue, and all it did was make me more distant, until I realized, im only 22, she's 21, I'm way too young to be dealing with this poo poo, I still have a life to live, places to go, people to meet.. and so I told her she shouldn't come back with me Her world was shattered, and I promise, I felt so bad, but Im so cold on the outside, I've become so cold that it came out completely heartless and emotionless, I can't stress when I say I'm at fault for so much poo poo, but I told her not to come back, she freaked out, she told me she was gonna live my dream too of exploring the world by taking a suicide trip to London and killing herself, and telling me she lost all reason to live and anything in the book to get me to change my mind, I couldn't take back what I said knowing this isn't the life I wanted to keep living, after I let her calm down I tried to help her to see if she could go back to her parents, but apparently I was her only ticket out, and she'd have to go to a homeless shelter, I felt horrible, but I had to do it, after that, things got worse.. The next day, my coworkers told me, she had dipped my tooth brush in Clorox, bathroom toilet detergent, and drowned it in her axe girls body spray, she was now trying to kill me, my coworkers bought me a new brush and tossed my old one for me, and told me that she kept telling them of ways to damage my face so that no one would find me attractive anymore, through the 3 days she didn't though, and I called her out on my tooth brush and she apologized for it, she was just deeply hurt about everything, and so I just stayed completely distant from her, she'll try to get in the shower with me and I won't let her, cus that's the only way we can have sex, she'll bicker about it after I get out, but I just don't try to respond to it or stay on the subject she wants to be on, my coworker hid my laptop for me in case she tries to do anything to it Well, this is my last week here, I leave Monday, and she pretty much just keeps trying to get on the subject of how I'm just dropping her, in a house full of strangers, with no idea of what she's gonna do with herself while I go back to my home town, can someone just please help me, I know I hosed up.. I hosed up bad, but I don't think I hosed up to the point where I should fear for my life, did I make the right choice, our should I take her with me knowing full well I've known her less than two months and this is a huge commitment?
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Moridin920 posted:hello ganglion still plugging away I see hey dude
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