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Has anybody here tried to end their life? What did it feel like between the time you did whatever you decided to do and when you woke up and realized you weren't dead? Like, after you tied the noose and knew that this was it, what is that feeling like? Was it scary, or exciting, or were you just kind of numb? Thanks for any info you can provide, I haven't asked anybody about this in real life because it's probably hard to talk about, but maybe it's easier to write about? PS: I hope you're feeling better now and living a much happier life. People love you, remember that.
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Paging Enfield.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:00
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Relief
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Jul 29, 2016 04:01
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Golem II posted:Relief In what way?
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Jul 29, 2016 04:04
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it was very painful and when i woke up i had drug dreams that i had a reset switch that would let me go back in time. after that was regret. pls dont kill yourselves. well bye
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Jul 29, 2016 04:04
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Enfield posted:it was very painful and when i woke up i had drug dreams that i had a reset switch that would let me go back in time. after that was regret. pls dont kill yourselves. well bye I'm glad you didn't die, and I hope nobody kills themselves too.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:05
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It's literal proof that you fail at everything.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:05
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Seems like a good idea for a thread, with no mean-spirited intentions at all.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:05
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you know, I thought about being edgy in here, but honestyl... if that's how to get forums cred... then I don't want it. 
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Jul 29, 2016 04:07
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The Dregs posted:It's literal proof that you fail at everything. Killing myself is one thing I'd be happy to fail at. Actually, most very successful people have failed many, many times before succeeding. Not that anybody should try to kill themselves again, but instead hopefully they're successful sooner now because they got a failure out of the way 
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Jul 29, 2016 04:07
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Keg posted:Killing myself is one thing I'd be happy to fail at. Actually, most very successful people have failed many, many times before succeeding. Not that anybody should try to kill themselves again, but instead hopefully they're successful sooner now because they got a failure out of the way Thats the kind of poo poo failures like to tell themselves because they suck. In reality if you don't crank one out of the park on the second swing you should just hang it up.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:12
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A calm peaceful acceptance.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:13
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My last attempt had me in the shower bleeding out of my wrist. I sat there a while, before cutting and after. I went into the shower resolute, determined. But the longer I sat bleeding I got scared and went to the night staff. They called an ambulance. It's weird that at that point it's like there's a wall in my memory. I was gone for a couple of months after that and when I got back I didn't remember a bunch of the people that live here. I didn't remember that I used to have regular phone calls with one of my friends. I remember my youth and growing up, but, the time immediately preceding my attempt is largely blank. Just weird.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:14
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If your method of choice is an overdose feels good man 
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Jul 29, 2016 04:14
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Enfield posted:it was very painful and when i woke up i had drug dreams that i had a reset switch that would let me go back in time. after that was regret. pls dont kill yourselves. well bye I have those dreams all the time but I've never tried to kill myself, I think its because I play bideo games alot and dream about having a quickload button
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Jul 29, 2016 04:16
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Enfield posted:it was very painful and when i woke up i had drug dreams that i had a reset switch that would let me go back in time. after that was regret. pls dont kill yourselves. well bye You're a good egg buddy.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:17
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maddison posted:My last attempt had me in the shower bleeding out of my wrist. Thank you for sharing and using capital letters & punctuation.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:18
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i'm dead
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Jul 29, 2016 04:19
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BirryJoru posted:i'm dead same
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Jul 29, 2016 04:20
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PromethiumX posted:Thats the kind of poo poo failures like to tell themselves because they suck. In reality if you don't crank one out of the park on the second swing you should just hang it up.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:20
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Well, if you fail then boy howdy do you feel silly afterward
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Jul 29, 2016 04:20
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maddison posted:My last attempt had me in the shower bleeding out of my wrist. Me too!  
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Jul 29, 2016 04:20
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I think that lots of people often feel regret as soon as they think they know for sure they're going to die, because once I saw a documentary called The Bridge and the guys who survived all said that at the very last moment before they hit the water after jumping off the bridge, they decided they didn't want to die. It's maybe because animals don't want to die on a visceral level, even if some people think dying will fix their problems.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:24
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Keg posted:I think that lots of people often feel regret as soon as they think they know for sure they're going to die, because once I saw a documentary called The Bridge and the guys who survived all said that at the very last moment before they hit the water after jumping off the bridge, they decided they didn't want to die. It's maybe because animals don't want to die on a visceral level, even if some people think dying will fix their problems. sounds like some kind of natural reflex like fight or flight rather than some kind of epiphany.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:33
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Jumped off a six-story building at the age of thirteen. Landed on my feet. Left foot is crippled. Hurts like hell to walk. Arthritis is kicking in at 28 and due to a series of poor life choices I can only really work physical jobs. Figure I've got maybe one decade left before no one will hire me. Need to make enough to set up passive revenue streams to retire on before then.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:33
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MvBo_rKleNw
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Jul 29, 2016 04:34
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As much as it shames me to reveal any degree of care for such things, people posting intimate details of their life should probably be aware that Keg is trolling for the sake of fyad, where a common belief is that all posters outside of fyad are mentally ill/depressed or alcoholic, and a frequent source of amusement is coaxing gbs into revealing that. Which is usually all fun and games, but actually getting people to talk about their suicide attempts is an overreach and misinterpretation by a poster who should simultaneously go back to and stay out of gbs.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:35
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It's kind of a relief compared to the hand wringing depression leading up to it
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Jul 29, 2016 04:38
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oh oh okay well actually I was trolling then too dance, puppets, dance
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Jul 29, 2016 04:41
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it's like a warm apple pie
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Jul 29, 2016 04:41
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Moon Atari posted:As much as it shames me to reveal any degree of care for such things, people posting intimate details of their life should probably be aware that Keg is trolling for the sake of fyad, where a common belief is that all posters outside of fyad are mentally ill/depressed or alcoholic, and a frequent source of amusement is coaxing gbs into revealing that. Which is usually all fun and games, but actually getting people to talk about their suicide attempts is an overreach and misinterpretation by a poster who should simultaneously go back to and stay out of gbs. seems sane
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Jul 29, 2016 04:43
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Keg posted:In what way? Because he wouldn't have to read your posts anymore
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Jul 29, 2016 04:46
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Moon Atari posted:As much as it shames me to reveal any degree of care for such things, people posting intimate details of their life should probably be aware that Keg is trolling for the sake of fyad, where a common belief is that all posters outside of fyad are mentally ill/depressed or alcoholic, and a frequent source of amusement is coaxing gbs into revealing that. Which is usually all fun and games, but actually getting people to talk about their suicide attempts is an overreach and misinterpretation by a poster who should simultaneously go back to and stay out of gbs. Jesus loving Christ, shut up. There is also a thing called catharsis. There is also a thing called perspective, which would allow someone reading GBS, who could be possibly contemplating this endeavor, a reprieve from doing so. And yes, it could also be used, by a degenerate, to laugh at the underprivileged. Welcome to life, rear end in a top hat. Where intent matters.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:46
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Moon Atari posted:As much as it shames me to reveal any degree of care for such things, people posting intimate details of their life should probably be aware that Keg is trolling for the sake of fyad, where a common belief is that all posters outside of fyad are mentally ill/depressed or alcoholic, and a frequent source of amusement is coaxing gbs into revealing that. Which is usually all fun and games, but actually getting people to talk about their suicide attempts is an overreach and misinterpretation by a poster who should simultaneously go back to and stay out of gbs. I always figured FYAD was quote:mentally ill/depressed or alcoholic
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Jul 29, 2016 04:46
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Colonel Cancer posted:I always figured FYAD was Yes.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:47
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I don't really know what's going on but literally none of us are sane because we post on SA in TYOOL2016
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Moon Atari posted:As much as it shames me to reveal any degree of care for such things, people posting intimate details of their life should probably be aware that Keg is trolling for the sake of fyad, where a common belief is that all posters outside of fyad are mentally ill/depressed or alcoholic, and a frequent source of amusement is coaxing gbs into revealing that. Which is usually all fun and games, but actually getting people to talk about their suicide attempts is an overreach and misinterpretation by a poster who should simultaneously go back to and stay out of gbs. Im pretty sure both gbs and fyad are full of mentally ill alcoholics in fact i think this site is full of them and was even founded by one
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Mange Mite posted:Im pretty sure both gbs and fyad are full of mentally ill alcoholics in fact i think this site is full of them and was even founded by one Yes. I would very much enjoy my state legalizing weed though.
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Jul 29, 2016 04:48
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When I tried to off myself by taking a handful of sedatives, I soon got very sleepy and went to bed. I thought I would die in my sleep, and my anguish would end. But I hadn't taken nearly enough, because I woke up at the usual time the next morning. I wasn't even late for work. Nearly forty years later, the only love I get comes from my cat. King Possum III fucked around with this message at 07:33 on Jul 29, 2016 |
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I'm not an alcoholic! 
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