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Asiina posted:Thanks, but its okay.
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Yeah! Or we can chip in and get you some groceries delivered tomorrow? Do you have a delivery service or Google Delivery or whatever?
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I went to the store today. It cost more because I didn't get the 10% student discount they give on Tuesdays, but I still needed to go. I usually do work between my mid-day and evening commitments, but I rushed off to the store, back home, and just made it back to campus in time. I am feeling better today, but I'm pretty sure I have depression (not just feeling sad) so it feels like a chemical thing. When I'm fine, I'm fine. When I'm bad it's like a dark pit from which there is no escape. Even knowing that in an hour or two I'll probably think the mood I was just in was ridiculous, it doesn't matter in that moment. It's also really impossible to know when those moments are going to come. It's like if you've ever had a panic attack. You can know logically exactly what is happening to you. Your nervous system is going crazy and you are flooded with adrenaline. You can know in your mind that you are totally fine and that it'll pass if you just wait it out, but none of that matters to the chemicals in your body that are screaming YOU ARE ABOUT TO DIE RIGHT NOW!!!! You can't fight chemical reactions with logic in that moment. You just gotta ride it out and wait for your body chemistry to fix itself. It's a lot like that. One of the things I blew off yesterday in my altered state was my appointment with my therapist. I've rescheduled though, so hopefully I'll get to see her next week. Thanks for the nice thoughts and offers of pizza though, I appreciate it.
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Also sorry if this is making anyone uncomfortable, but I think that hiding mental illness only works to stigmatize it, so I try to share my actual state whenever I can.
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Feb 26, 2015 02:25
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Asiina posted:It's like if you've ever had a panic attack. You can know logically exactly what is happening to you. Your nervous system is going crazy and you are flooded with adrenaline. You can know in your mind that you are totally fine and that it'll pass if you just wait it out, but none of that matters to the chemicals in your body that are screaming YOU ARE ABOUT TO DIE RIGHT NOW!!!! You can't fight chemical reactions with logic in that moment. You just gotta ride it out and wait for your body chemistry to fix itself.
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Feb 26, 2015 03:09
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Yeah, depression bites. Still learning to deal with it myself, though meds have really helped me out w/ it. Maybe you should consider something like that to help you, Asiina?
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Feb 26, 2015 05:13
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I think it's great that we have a community where we can support and talk about things like this and as far as I'm concerned you should continue to do so, no apologies! Talking always helps~
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Feb 26, 2015 05:48
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Asiina posted:Also sorry if this is making anyone uncomfortable, but I think that hiding mental illness only works to stigmatize it, so I try to share my actual state whenever I can. Nah, talk about your piece. I have spent most of today and quite a lot of days recently being utterly terrified. I should probably talk about it more.
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Feb 26, 2015 08:35
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ive been spending my recent days playing triple triad. which iis worse -_-
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Feb 26, 2015 09:33
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I've spent my recent
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Quidnose posted:I think it's great that we have a community where we can support and talk about things like this and as far as I'm concerned you should continue to do so, no apologies! Talking always helps~ Brene Brown has an amazing Ted Talk that helped give me a lot of perspective on this. I can't recommend it enough. This community is great! I'm well past my gaming years and figured I was too old to have "internet friends", and the fact that I like so many people from a group based on games where we all lie to each other is shocking but nice. I have gotten (and given) life advice that was genuinely helpful from people I met from Mafia/FRGs, and am genuinely thankful that, when I want low-risk company, it's just a click away. ESPECIALLY in a winter like this where leaving the house is a chore. I've had at least two nights that I can think of where I was stuck with insomnia, very much in my own head, and going on Skype to talk to people from this group helped ease my mind a lot. That's really cool. To Asii - sending you good vibes, and as someone who credits therapy as something that saved my life, I hope you get out there next week 
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Feb 26, 2015 19:46
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Chic Trombone posted:##check cool hangout mafia's pulse
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Mar 4, 2015 21:21
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A rhythmic, if relaxed heart beat.
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Mar 4, 2015 21:23
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##stab cool hang out mafia to death
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Mar 4, 2015 21:27
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You should modkill Asiina for faking a day action.
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Pinterest Mom posted:You should modkill Asiina for faking a day action. that works too
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Is the trick to this game that all "fake" actions actually cause mod responses? ##un-toxx MMM
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##cop Murmur Twin
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HiipFire posted:##cop Murmur Twin 
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Mar 4, 2015 21:48
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scumclaim spotted ##vote mmt
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Mar 4, 2015 21:54
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It's true, I'm scum.
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Mar 4, 2015 22:12
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Cool Hang Out Mafia has ended in Moderator Defeat Join me in Too Many Ramones
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Mar 26, 2015 23:03
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We did it guys! Go team!!!
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Mar 26, 2015 23:06
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WOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooo
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Mar 26, 2015 23:08
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yay okay, spill were we actually all town?
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Mar 27, 2015 01:28
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I never got a role PM, sooooooo....
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Mar 27, 2015 02:18
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Allen Wren posted:yay two people were double voting 3P. If they made it to the end then town would lose. The town was split between VT and loved voteless folks. I forgot to put the standard "You win when all threats are eliminated" thing in because I thought it was implied but it lead to some great stuff. There were no scum.
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