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i have had wicked dreams the last few weeks or so. i don't sleep for more than a few hours a night (but holy poo poo is napping during the daytime as easy as ur mom). summer time is rough for me because it was when a bunch of people got dusted in afghanistan. i also stopped smoking weed because i was getting tight in my chest so that might have something to do with it. but yeah summer and the very beginning/end of the year are always anxious/stressful/depressed times for me regardless of what is going on in my life, moreso than normal.
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I've been more angry and sad than usual recently. I think it had alot to do with these recent news cycles and a sort of generaized nihilism I've been seeing Cascade through my friends and relatives. Working more on being upbeat and making reasons to feel happy and optimistic though
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Jun 29, 2017 01:02
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poo poo, I'm out 2 years running and I am starting to feel it. You are not alone on this one. Its like that feeling you get on your skin right before a giant gently caress off thunder storm rolls through.
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Jun 29, 2017 01:42
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Wasabi the J posted:Hey guys has anyone (still in even) had a ton of anxiety lately? I had wicked anxiety during the last couple of months. also for slack users, my invites have been slow but I would also suggest you guys ask for a GIP discord invite since that is way more active than the slack channel.
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I've been a poor slack user because I don't have the GiP slack on my phone and I'm away from home most of the time. I also feel like a dick because I've taken suicide watch calls before and felt the exhaustion the next morning, where I have to yell at myself saying what if next time it's your drunken rear end feeling reality set in and fffffffffffff Seriously like many goons here I've had too many friends. Message me if you need something. I loving suck at making noble statements but I drove all the way to my best friends and clocked him in the face at 4am because I'm selfish and don't want to have to go to any more funerals. In other news my grandmother died and I feel like poo poo because at 92 she was still spry as a fox and just dropped after a solid dance at the national home. My mom and my aunt managed to get a fairly in depth taped account of all the poo poo she went through a hear or two ago. I almost feel like the only way to do justice to her life is to write a book about her hopping the wall from East Germany with my infant mom and aunt, but I'm heasitant to even think about it because it's a story of surviving the fire bombing of Dresden and other horrible events that make me hate long dead nazis. And in retrospect my initial reaction to delete this post in antipathy to the point of this thread and posting from the heart. Typing out words that you're feeling hurts. So get it off your chest
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Jun 29, 2017 05:39
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I had about a week at the beginning of the month where even my Ativan script didn't help. Its been a bad month for a couple friends too, and I probably won't make it through July with out getting that 3 am phone call. Unless its me they are calling each other about. Which frankly, wouldn't be too bad of an option.
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M_Gargantua posted:I've been a poor slack user because I don't have the GiP slack on my phone and I'm away from home most of the time. I also feel like a dick because I've taken suicide watch calls before and felt the exhaustion the next morning, where I have to yell at myself saying what if next time it's your drunken rear end feeling reality set in and fffffffffffff You're a good lad for clocking a friend when he needed it, and your gran sounds like she was a special awesome kind of girl.
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I reached out to some friends to get some help, in already feeling a bit more hopeful  Shout out to the goon that really stepped up for me, thank you!
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Jun 29, 2017 16:58
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Just wanna put out there that I am always available if anyone needs to vent. I'm on discord or PMs.
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Today's my wife's birthday. I'm going to be visiting her gravesite with flowers and a small bottle of mead that I made. She really liked it last time I made it. It's been a rough 20 months, but I'm getting through it. The first six or so were probably the worst.
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McNally posted:Today's my wife's birthday. I'm going to be visiting her gravesite with flowers and a small bottle of mead that I made. She really liked it last time I made it. My condolences. I sincerely admire your strength during all this, I hope that anyone going through any tragedy would be able to look to your example with hope. I'm sure I speak for most of us here when we say we're here for you regardless. Wasabi the J fucked around with this message at 19:42 on Aug 16, 2017 |
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Aug 16, 2017 18:43
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Echoing Wasabi. We're here for you buddy.
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McNally posted:Today's my wife's birthday. I'm going to be visiting her gravesite with flowers and a small bottle of mead that I made. She really liked it last time I made it. Do your thing and make a call if you need it. Anyone here will answer.
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Syrian Lannister posted:Echoing Wasabi. We're here for you buddy. I can't put it any better after several tries
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McNally posted:Today's my wife's birthday. I'm going to be visiting her gravesite with flowers and a small bottle of mead that I made. She really liked it last time I made it. It's hard to believe it's been that long since this all started. I'm glad you're still here.
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McNally, I am sorry to hear of your wife's passing. I'm glad to hear you are doing better. In fact I hope everyone here is doing better than they were yesterday. I don't know any of you but I love you all.
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Aug 24, 2017 15:15
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My best friend killed herself last night. gently caress.
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gently caress
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Aug 28, 2017 22:44
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McNally posted:My best friend killed herself last night. gently caress.
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Nostalgia4Murder posted:gently caress
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McNally posted:My best friend killed herself last night. Good lord. sorry.
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McNally posted:My best friend killed herself last night. Jesus McNally. I'm sorry.
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Aug 29, 2017 00:11
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gently caress.  We're still here for you, man.
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McNally posted:My best friend killed herself last night. Why you? Like, I'm genuinely curious now.
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Soulex posted:Why you? Like, I'm genuinely curious now. Statistical outlier?
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McNally posted:Statistical outlier? I mean universe wise I guess. Of all people to burden these, why pick you? Destiny or dogma, I don't know. I wish there were words to describe it. It's not fair how someone at random sometimes gets dealt blows like this over and over. I'm sorry about all of this man. In the end of all this, you will either be a fantastic individual weathered and polished, or you'll spiral down into a pit where you've been before. Just don't forget to reach out if you start spinning. We all want to see you happy.
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Aug 29, 2017 08:21
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Something has to balance out my enormous penis, I guess.
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Edit: dumb joke that shouldnt have been said.
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Aug 29, 2017 18:20
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Mr. Nice! posted:Did she complete her annual suicide training? Really?
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I'm sorry man. Just a little dark humor. Last time someone held back you called them a pussy. It's a lovely situation and a dumb joke. I guess it would have helped if it was a good joke.
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Mr. Nice! posted:I'm sorry man. Just a little dark humor. Last time someone held back you called them a pussy. It's a lovely situation and a dumb joke. Yeah, no, you're right. It wasn't a good joke.  But seriously, though, I think I had eighteen simultaneous reactions to your post and most of them require knowledge I didn't share. My friend was a civilian, never served. Also I misread it at first and took "suicide training" to mean "training on how to commit suicide." Brain no worky so good lately.
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Nah i know and i figured. I was just trying to make a stupid crack to help you smile a bit.
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Mr. Nice! posted:Nah i know and i figured. I was just trying to make a stupid crack to help you smile a bit. If it makes you feel better, it worked once I realized what was going on.
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Well, silver lining and all. Keep your head up man.
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Mr. Nice! posted:Edit: dumb joke that shouldnt have been said. My joke was gonna be that he should just take the hint that women don't like being around him and should consider being gay.
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I am looking forward to the made for TV movie about McNally's life after he gets elected to Congress or some poo poo
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Is it just me or did it get really dark in here really fast. Call if you need anything. My number is on slack app.
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Pesticide20 posted:I am looking forward to the made for TV movie about McNally's life after he gets elected to Congress or some poo poo I have the know-how, ability, and experience to do a documentary thing. I'd be willing to do it free schedule permitting and finances pending. (Not for me or whatever. I'm talking about travel and stuff). That offer is for you McNally and I'll PM you my work if you're interested. I'd post it here but 1) my name is on it because I sign off, and 2) I've been doxxed twice here already and I'm not wanting 3.
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Soulex posted:My joke was gonna be that he should just take the hint that women don't like being around him and should consider being gay. I had a real elaborate one about hubris and his gigantic penis offending Yahweh, who is a jealous God, a quote from Numbers with cubits, and then I thought well that's a bad idea. Sorry McNally. Hang in.
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