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^^^^^^^^ lmao that looks cool love a good arcade - esp those ones where you pay like $20 for 1 hour and all the games are free play
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Vintersorg posted:love a good arcade - esp those ones where you pay like $20 for 1 hour and all the games are free play I miss karaoke the most
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Vintersorg posted:you into slam smoka? no it sounds like death grips poo poo that only big beardos listen to
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Vintersorg posted:Opeth speaking of growls gotta Jinjer Post https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQNtGoM3FVU
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_7QoPhEA-s8 northside sweepin up narcan kits instead of cans and butts SmokaDustbowl fucked around with this message at 05:30 on Aug 18, 2021 |
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i was supposed to see Jinjer open up for Cradle of Filth when i drove down to Minneapolis. that would have been really fun!!! then a super blizzard hit and there was 0 visibilty. the night was cancelled but i got to meet the peeps in CoF, Jinjers bus got stuck outside the city and couldnt meet them thankfully they came back to NA a year later and in Winnipeg so i didnt have to drive 8 hours hehe have you all seen bus invaders? it's loving fun https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DDOcBcHD_LY
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President Beep posted:i really like earnestposting sometimes President Beep posted:it can be nice to open yourself up to others. kind of a communal thing. Hm, took a while to figure out what the point of those three posts actually was. They were demonstrating the point, but not explicitly saying what that point is. And what I'm doing is calling out your bullshit. Nobody actually wants to hear my story, because it's a story full of trauma and horror and twisting the knife, and yes, it's always that. You saying these things is a bunch of banal bullshit that makes you feel better about life; and it's deeply hurtful. I've heard the idea I should share and open up a thousand times, and where I've lost count of the times me actually doing that has been used for mockery and belittling me, I've had it be the truth once. Exactly once. You might expect me to never share the details about that one time, and you would be absolutely correct. I don't share what I like because being careless with information will come back to bite me. I don't share the why I like things because it's always a story of finding relief from horrors in a way that doesn't make any sense unless you have the context of the horrors. And nobody likes the person whose story is always somehow incredibly grim and phenomenally boring, as many tales of illness are. I'm actually angry. Huh. Well-disguised hurtful words do get to me sometimes, I guess.
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I know what follows is me being belittled and my view invalidated, because it doesn't fit within socially acceptable reactions, and deeply hurtful bullshit hurting me shouldn't hurt me because others don't have the experiences I have, which means I'm wrong and should just sit down and shut up and maybe take a chill pill.
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Achmed Jones posted:look man if you're so hosed up that you can't imagine genuine or ernest expression then whatever, but don't try to make those trying to genuinely connect with other people the bad guys. I have never told any of the real story on a public forum. It's too goddamn painful. The problem isn't the way graph asked. The problem is Beep shaming me for actually being honest about not wanting to share anything I genuinely enjoy.
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i enjoy riding motorcycles, flying airplanes, and eating soup on cold days
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crap, i was hoping you didn't see that. wasn't trying to make you feel bad and i communicated poorly. apologies for that. i don't think beep was trying to shame you. for lots of folks being unguarded helps a lot. i understand where you're coming from (not the health stuff - the guarded stuff). there's a lot in my life (both past and present) that i don't talk about online for similar reasons. sometimes we can be dumb and unhelpful but it's because people (myself included) want to see you happy, and for many people sharing a genuine love of radios or whatever online makes the day a little brighter. i understand that you probably think i'm making fun of you or setting you up in some capacity, but all i can do is say that's not my intention at all.
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lets just be all chill also smoka im not surprised you're into icp hehe <3 its midnight tho, time to nap night pos WORK TOMORROW https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7vJDPsd80f4
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Vintersorg posted:also smoka im not surprised you're into icp hehe <3 we used to skip school and go smoke weed at my friend's place, and it was either Usher or ICP https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GxBSyx85Kp8
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this is what I’m listening to right now https://youtu.be/hCebq5lLgos
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Achmed Jones posted:crap, i was hoping you didn't see that. wasn't trying to make you feel bad and i communicated poorly. apologies for that. I get that Beep just didn't think about it and was trying to encourage me being comfortable, but he failed to consider that there's a REASON for being guarded. I ain't ever going to feel actually safe in any public online spaces that could be scraped. Not after, well. Giving me poo poo about being on guard isn't welcome, especially given that I've made it clear I know a lot about OSS and I'm autistic. endlessmonotony fucked around with this message at 07:23 on Aug 18, 2021 |
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SmokaDustbowl posted:only narcs listen to eminem and early 2000s suburban moms who wanted to be "hip" with their kids (sorry mom)
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shame on you dre for eminem. shame on you. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_CL6n0FJZpk
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FAT32 SHAMER posted:te’ fuckin rules hell yeah quote:me and my youngest use *shels - Butterflies on Luci’s Way as a lullaby every night and it’s wonderful thanks for the rec will check more out
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wow so many new pages and people are still posting about bad* music *music that isn’t the original nes bionic commando theme
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rotor posted:man i posted the ministry track right there Chicago ≠ Canada
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Well, as loving everyone can tell, that's what it looks like when I'm triggered. In this case, by being pushed when I'm uncomfortable by someone I expected better from. And the sane thing is to just to stop posting and go to bed, and I've been working on my sleep hygiene recently, and now it's 11:15 in the morning, I haven't slept, and I'm still angry. So that's delightful. Also I have Want You Gone playing in my head again. Ask hbag about going to bed in time when you can't stop thinking and doing even if you know you're not thinking or doing anything useful. I don't want to share things I like any more than I do. I don't want to share the reasons either. If you got a problem with that, then that's your problem to have. I'm profoundly unhappy to be in my shell. loving leave me here. I don't have a way out. You can suggest therapy to someone who's allowed therapy, I've received my share and made actually a whole loving lot of progress but it stalled eventually, and my doctors - I have half a dozen specialties treating me at any given time - say that that isn't surprising and we shouldn't expect miracles to happen. This is the level of functional I can do, this will keep happening, and it's just something I got to live with. I've put in more work than I can ever communicate to anyone and I've recovered well beyond the doctors' expectations, and I ain't recovering further. Fuckwad McUrist telling me otherwise isn't helpful because they don't know as much as the doctors do. hbag I'm not projecting with the things I tell you (haven't since I realized it was my heart that was loving up and I got that back under control in April) and you have not called out once what I'm trying to tell you or what my motivations are and that's fine, that's normal, you'll get it in time. I'm trying to point out how your complaints are normal for your diagnosis and where they can't be cured they can be mitigated but for that you need to be honest with your doctor what the symptoms are, and your memory doesn't carry these details well, so you need a loving symptom journal. Nobody's memory works that way for poo poo they're bothered by but used to. I'm telling you what happens to me - with the same diagnosis - so you can compare and contrast and maybe get a few insights into how this poo poo works, and I think I've done about as much of that as I care to.
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I could hide it, I could try to deny it, I could stop posting about it, but funnily, the fact that I don't is in fact one of the big things the therapy did. I could live in fear of my next attack which will cause erratic behavior... ooor I could not give a poo poo, admit it happens, and not stress about it. If I could do something about it, I would have, a very loving long time ago.
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*400 unread posts* *last unread message by endlessmonotony* *opens the thread* yep
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cinci zoo sniper posted:*400 unread posts* It's at worst fifty posts by/about me. They are all, however, perfect post/name combos. Mostly it's music.
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I do not like melting down and sperging out. I want to have a normal relatively painless, quiet life. I'd prefer being able to work, that's for certain. Instead I get this, and nothing at all can cure it. Or the pain for that matter, as it turns out. The pain definitely makes it worse, and hey, the doc found the damaged nerve aaand it's the trigeminal and literally everything they can do is too risky. (That was the C-SPAM meltdown that got a QCS thread made about me being too depressing for the mental health thread.) I get a whole lot of "if I had something like that I'd kill myself" and even more "that can't be a real disease". But gently caress that, I've put this much work into mitigating this fucker, I'm gonna see how far I can push it. Lately it's actually began showing significant returns. I'd say I'd do anything to make it stop but that's not true either, I have goals I prioritize and ironically once you have the skill set for dealing with this poo poo, it can be generalized into many other tasks, so I'm... I wouldn't say thankful because this poo poo sucks, but eh, it's useful in its own ways at least.
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Kazinsal posted:NES sound chip stuff is absolute magic its so good but is anything better than the genesis/master system chip https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AOdtT9X93zQ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pLjQPR1Ncu0
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cjs: moved to a new office, right next door to the last one lol. not as fancy or as good a view out the window (level 1 instead of level 9) but there's more people i know here (networking nerds) instead of the last place which was like all HR/recruitment/tender-response dinguses. unfortunately ive got a meeting about ISO 27001 accreditation first thing tomorrow  cls: it appears my new NAS has been delivered to the office, yesssss!!! edit: oh wait, i can collect the NAS after the ISO meeting which will save me a trip. convenient Pile Of Garbage fucked around with this message at 11:57 on Aug 18, 2021 |
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endlessmonotony posted:The problem is Beep shaming me for actually being honest about not wanting to share anything I genuinely enjoy. what in the everloving gently caress?
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