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Rodney the Piper posted:I do not post here very often, especially these days, but I've been pretty down on myself for no good reason the past week or two and it loving sucks.
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May 29, 2019 04:45
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Rodney the Piper posted:Thanks, Foochs, Liquid & Critical. I have a counseling appointment next week with a new therapist, which makes me a little nervous, but they're supposed to specialize in PTSD which will help me. I've got anxiety because of work on top of that which is really loving with my sleep.
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May 29, 2019 21:47
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I can't speak for anybody else, but my mental health took an incredible turn for the worse once Trump was elected and it's been more of an effort every day knowing this country hates me so much that it would elect its worst person to its highest office because he would work to oppress the already marginalized.
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May 29, 2019 23:27
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DeathChicken posted:My therapist told me once I seem to have an addiction to emotional pain and will set up situations that go as badly as possible just so I can wallow in it. Makes about as much sense as anything.
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May 29, 2019 23:55
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The thing I learned from my last two long-term relationships: Never date another fellow neurodivergent. Definitely never date anybody who's neurotypical. I have yet to find a solution to these problems that isn't just not dating. But therapy and time are paramount when getting over long-term relationships ending, and I was with my ex-wife for eleven years, so I'm workin' on it. I don't envy your proximity to the event, Dimebags. Those first few months are the toughest. Stay strong.
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May 30, 2019 02:25
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SamuraiFoochs posted:To my fellow sad brains: do NOT give up on yourselves. I all but had interpersonally and this woman came along and has changed everything for me. Don't look for somebody to complete you. Be two complete people enjoying one another. It's possible I'm projecting. :-P
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Jun 1, 2019 23:30
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Jerusalem posted:I found a plant based "beef" that is loving delicious and manages to get the consistency just right and I'm in loving love with it, I tried a different brand and the taste was there but the consistency wasn't and it's the latter that is surprisingly the most important over the taste when it comes to replicating meat. Haven't found a good replacement for chicken yet, but I'm happy to not have to buy beef anymore.
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Jun 2, 2019 01:04
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TV Zombie posted:NPR was saying how the effort that it takes to make it taste like a real burger makes it just as bad as a regular burger.
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Jun 2, 2019 23:58
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TTBF posted:Most of the Titanic backlash comes from that song. It was suffocating following that film's release.
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Jun 4, 2019 04:54
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Endless Mike posted:I put my cat down this morning. He was 16 and I raised him from a kitten. I'm very sad.
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Jun 9, 2019 00:12
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The Croc posted:So Keanu reeves is in cyberpunk now so the most hyped game has reached a level of hype that cannot be physically explained
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Jun 9, 2019 21:31
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Jerusalem posted:Catching up on the Bethesday E3 Press Conference. They announced a new Commander Keen..... as a mobile game. CobiWann posted:When he turned down Speed 2 to go do Hamlet in loving Winnipeg. Keanu Reeves has always ruled, but especially since the reluctant Christ figure speech in Johnny Mnemonic. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HSwyMHvXsuU&t=10s
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Jun 10, 2019 21:17
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Jerusalem posted:Sorry about your friend, and gently caress cancer so loving much.
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Jun 11, 2019 04:07
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Jerusalem posted:Yeah, hope things get better on that end Foochs. Please remember to reach out to anybody in real life who might be able to help as well, whether a friend, family or somebody professional. No Irish Need Imply posted:the fact that i grew up with two Sonic cartoons with completely opposite vibes always tripped me up
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Jun 11, 2019 23:49
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One of these days I'll remember to wash my hands thoroughly before touching my eyes after cutting up habaneros.
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Jun 13, 2019 23:02
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Luke72w posted:One time I touched my dick after cutting habaneros and a quick Google search of "should I put my dick in milk?" returned results that were essentially "you already know the answer is yes and you are just making it worse by putting it off"
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Jun 13, 2019 23:49
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So after eight months of sticking myself with needles to transition and not seeing much in the way of feminization, I got a second opinion over at Planned Parenthood and discovered that my GP had me on doses WAAAAAY below what they oughtta' be. With PP, we've rectified the problem and we'll be moving me up to the proper dose slowly over the next three months.' Good news, right? The trouble is, we've octoupled my t-blockers over the last month, but we've actually decreased my overall estrogen to start, since the move from injections to pills isn't as simple as 1:1 dosages, and the increase there needs to happen more slowly to mitigate the risk of pituitary tumors and such, so right now my brain has neither the testosterone nor the estrogen to function and booooooy howdy are the sadbrains in full effect. I've been depressed before, but even at its worst, I could take joy in something, even if it was something self-destructive. It's so weird knowing for absolute certain that it's not permanent and will pass in time, but still feel like it never will and this is how life is now. It's like having a layover at ABQ.
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Jun 17, 2019 21:46
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Blast Fantasto posted:As someone with a rare hormone disorder I empathize a lot with the trans community because I am also sticking myself with 5 needles a week. Woof!
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Jun 17, 2019 23:22
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Spikeguy posted:I would totally do a sex change if it was easy. When I was a kid I had a fantasy that in the afterlife you got to live through life again with previous knowledge and getting to change a few things and I was always like man I'd love to be a woman. You don't have to do transition or like, tell anybody, or even live your life any differently, but I think you might be trans or nonbinary?
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Jun 18, 2019 21:54
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coconono posted:Gender is becoming an increasingly unwieldy descriptor.
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Jun 19, 2019 06:21
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coconono posted:microwave it more.
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Jun 20, 2019 23:42
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Jiro posted:Also make a steak.
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Jun 21, 2019 01:09
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El Gallinero Gros posted:That's good parenting.
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Jun 22, 2019 03:00
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ChrisBTY posted:What's the difference between tea and broth? But if you want to call mint tea mint broth I wouldn't kick up a fuss. I think if you put peppers and onions in Earl Gray, the vegetables take over the importance and it becomes herb-infused vegetable broth. Like when one dude is in a group of women in French, you still call them a group of men.
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Jun 22, 2019 18:43
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PUNKS DIET SODA posted:Looks like I'm showing signs of schizophrenia y'all.
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Jun 22, 2019 20:57
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PUNKS DIET SODA posted:Thanks guys. I'm glad as gently caress you and your doctor caught it early enough that it could make a big difference.
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Jun 23, 2019 03:28
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Jun 30, 2019 05:27
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jesus WEP posted:is noodle wearing a loving rainbow neckerchief And I'm sorry, DoctorGonzo. That sucks.
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Jun 30, 2019 19:06
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Cavauro posted:i didn't watch stranger things when it was a big deal and now i am doing it. i heard the second season is not good but i think people must have been caught up in the hype initially because the first one seems like any other watchable but stupid netflix show too. there are like 20 minutes across 8 episodes of people just standing around yelling someone's name It was always just a good show at best, and I wouldn't compare it to fast food being crap, as is a meme these days, but I would compare it craving chicken nuggets for like seven hours and finally getting them. That's a good-rear end moment, when you take that bite.
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Jul 3, 2019 03:06
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SamuraiFoochs posted:My stress and depression always sneak up on me at times that make no sense and I hate it a lot. To be fair I think I get tired of lovely news and nihilism and constant information of "by the way this person is an idiot or garbage or said or did this bad thing!". I know to an extent knowledge is power or whatever but there's definitely a point of oversaturation and I think I reach it regularly.
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Jul 8, 2019 00:39
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Jul 10, 2019 21:54
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ChrisBTY posted:I am getting very tired. I'm tired all the time. But that feeling you're describing, where your body starts fading and tells you to go to bed? I haven't experienced that but three times since I was ten years old. You are absolutely right to not take it for granted. Never, ever feeling like sleeping, or being able to do so, but always being too tired to do anything is a curse I would only wish on bigots and people you wave into traffic who don't wave back.
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Jul 11, 2019 19:56
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Um... so 25 habaneros may have been too many for this pot of chili.
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Jul 12, 2019 06:20
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I eat carolina reapers. The spiciness isn't as much of an issue as it overtaking the flavor.
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Jul 12, 2019 06:39
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fart blood posted:I apologize in advance if this is inappropriate to ask but...can stem cells help you at all? I imagine this is much the same.
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Jul 15, 2019 04:33
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drrockso20 posted:Apologies if this is a bit blunt, but how the gently caress are you still alive? I'm tired. Often. Most of the time, I'm tired. But that feeling you get when your eyes are heavy and you start falling asleep? I haven't felt sleepy since I was ten years old. For decades, I would be awake for days at a time. When I would finally fall asleep, I would wake up every twenty minutes in a cold sweat and it would take me an hour or more to get back to sleep. Hypnic jerks in my body (that thing where you're falling asleep and an arm or a leg just jumps around on its own) would persist all through the day, every day, because I was never resting. I went to doctor after doctor. None of them believed me. None of them could understand that I wasn't being dramatic. I really never, ever, ever got sleepy, and when I did sleep, the most I could muster was about four nonconsecutive hours of sleep over the course of twelve hours of being in bed and trying and trying to sleep. I developed a fairly serious alcohol problem because, for a time, it was the perfect solution. I'd drink to excess, sleep wonderfully for eight or more hours, and feel completely refreshed and amazing the next day. If it weren't disastrous for your health, it would've been the perfect solution. I kept this up off and on for a long time. Not sleeping for days on end, then drinking myself to sleep three-or-four nights a week so I could finally rest. When my dad got cancer, a period that lasted about two years, and died, I drank every single night because being awake at 3 AM? That's prime sadbrain time. My marriage was on the rocks, I was unemployed, I was losing my father, and I I couldn't stop self-medicating. I went to the doctor and told them I needed help because I was drinking every night. From this point, it took more than two years to get actual help after bouncing from doctor to doctor, because when you tell a doctor "I'm drinking too much to self-medicate and I very much want to stop," that's all you are. You're an alcoholic. That's your problem. Stop drinking and it'll all be fine. What's that? You drank to solve a problem we couldn't help you with? Oh, and you've not had a drink in two months after I told you that, and the problem has persisted? Tough poo poo. Go exercise more despite the fact that you do it all the time even though you're perpetually exhausted. I did two sleep studies. When I do sleep, I sleepwalk. I never really rest. But they just told me to stop drinking and lose weight. (I've never been fat. That's just doctor-speak for "I have one tool and it's a hammer, so your problem is a nail." Eventually, with enough persistence and changing from doctor to doctor, desperately searching for one who'd bother trying, I was given a diagnosis of PTSD, which, duh, I have nightmares all the time, can't ever sleep, am jumpy and nervous all the time, and have been through shitloads of trauma. It was all right there, and it took years of doctor visits for anybody to notice. Every time I was given a new sleep med, it would be a silver bullet and work like gangbusters the first night, but would be less effective every subsequent night until it wasn't making any difference and just worsened my sleepwalking. I cooked whole meals in my sleep. You can do anything in your sleep that you can do awake, and sleep meds, not to mention alcohol, exacerbate the problem. But this time, I wasn't given sleep meds. I was given blood pressure medication. The same stuff they gave to vietnam vets. It worked great at first, but its effectiveness, too, faded over time. Over the course of a few years, and again, changing doctors often, I finally found one who'd put me on a proper dose of the stuff. Then, mercifully, a third sleep study found that I had restless leg syndrome, so I was given meds for that. Finally, I started transitioning. T-blockers and estrogen. And combined with the above, I can finally sleep at night without drinking. My alcohol intake dropped down to social drinking only. It isn't easy to get to sleep, and I still wake up in cold sweats often, but I can get back to sleep and I wake up more-or-less rested far more often than not, now. For the last ten months, I've been doing okay. The insomnia and nightmares and sleepwalking and anxiety still take hold occasionally and I go a few days without sleep, but it isn't every night anymore.
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Thank you! The American medical system is a hellish nightmare to navigate, so I'd encourage everybody to be persistent and not let it beat you.
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Jul 15, 2019 23:44
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I can also post from alternate futures. 1.)The impeachment proceedings will unearth very little new information, but will direct the news media, on the daily, to wrongdoing that hasn't commanded news attention despite common knowledge. 2.)The impeachment will pass the house with no issue and wide support of the American public now that the media has finally stopped covering Trump in exactly the way that helps him most and has begun covering his corruption instead of his crowd-pleasing dog-whistles we talk about in breathless terms. 3.) The impeachment fails in the senate because despite America largely knowing Trump is a corrupt gently caress who doesn't care about his base, his racism is more important and partisans gonna partisan. 4.) Democrats run on how corrupt the Republican party is and how out of touch with the workers they are and how they stood up for the person the country clearly doesn't want This paints them as establishment, which voters hate. This works, because we've disseminated through the news media actually doing their job, a version of Trump that gets through to people who only have a passing interest in politics. 5.) A actual leftist has a chance to win.
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It's really depressing how the rules just don't apply to Trump and he keeps getting away with poo poo that would sink anybody else.
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