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Stairmaster posted:anyone else feel like they're slowly going insane constantly since I was like 16
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Feb 28, 2021 03:45
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Stairmaster posted:anyone else feel like they're slowly going insane Yes. I've spent so much time and money not going crazy, I'm beginning to wonder if it's worth it. It is.
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Feb 28, 2021 05:16
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quote:Perhaps it is unusual for so many words to be written, political theory instead of a memorial narrative, for a message honoring a martyr of the revolution. I kept comrade Michael Forest Reinoehl firmly in my mind with every word I wrote down in this text. This text is not an act of revenge. I still haven’t paid a penny of my debt. I have only determined it. Our revenge will go all the way. breadnsucc has issued a correction as of 19:28 on Aug 21, 2021 |
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Feb 28, 2021 05:56
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Stairmaster posted:anyone else feel like they're slowly going insane it feels good when you finally get there at least
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Feb 28, 2021 07:00
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Stairmaster posted:anyone else feel like they're slowly going insane Well, I wouldn't say slowly.
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Mar 1, 2021 22:30
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Once I stopped drinking/working myself to death, my mental health hasn't been doing too poorly. Oddly I quit drinking as much a few months before pushing myself pointlessly hard for a paycheck, but that's pandemic times for ya! The bar lost a lot of appeal when I went out to one and a dude I didn't know was all mask down in my bubble, and after our covid bonuses dried up at work I was given a twenty five loving cent raise, so my hardcore service industry vet work ethic took a mighty hit as well.
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Mar 2, 2021 15:15
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I learned that my company is closing yesterday and it hit me really hard and I have no idea where I’ll go next
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Mar 2, 2021 17:57
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im on the net me boys posted:I learned that my company is closing yesterday and it hit me really hard and I have no idea where I’ll go next Start your unemployment app asap. Depending on your state it might take a while to get sorted, but if this new covid relief bill passes you should get some extra $ via unemployment benefits
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Mar 2, 2021 18:21
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Hey chokes (& others that share) thank you for the thread. I've been dealing with depression since 2016 and was diagnosed as bipolar II back in september when my psych tried to up the lexapro and moods went a-swingin'. Since then they killed the lexapro and swapped over to the mood-stabilizers but I feel like they've been making adjustments to meds every like 2 weeks and I don't know if anything's getting better. I was in a mental hospital last month because I was having suicidal ideations and the hospital psych made a lot of changes; switched me off lamictal to depakote, kept the seroquel & buspar, & re-added the lexapro. Growing up, mental health problems were viewed as a weakness in my family and while I don't talk to my folks at all anymore, I'm too embarrassed / worried to bother my brothers about everything that's going on. So I tell no one because I have no friends & make my wife shoulder too much of the burden to the point that it's affecting her - we both go to therapy but she feels I'm not taking any initiative w/r/t educating myself on my meds or looking into accounts of others who have the same condition, and she's right, but I feel like I'm stuck in this limbo of being functional but unhappy / indifferent about everything because all I can do is the bare minimum to get through the day. I'm incredibly shy due to abysmal self-confidence so I don't know where to even start finding people I'd want to open up to so I guess that's why I'm posting here. anyway, hope everyone is well, thank you for attending my ted talk
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Mar 2, 2021 22:28
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RoboFrance_29 posted:Hey chokes (& others that share) thank you for the thread. I've been dealing with depression since 2016 and was diagnosed as bipolar II back in september when my psych tried to up the lexapro and moods went a-swingin'. Since then they killed the lexapro and swapped over to the mood-stabilizers but I feel like they've been making adjustments to meds every like 2 weeks and I don't know if anything's getting better. I was in a mental hospital last month because I was having suicidal ideations and the hospital psych made a lot of changes; switched me off lamictal to depakote, kept the seroquel & buspar, & re-added the lexapro. No worries, friendo. Believe me, I've been where you were at. I'm glad you sought the help you needed rather than letting it get out of control (like I did  ). One question: have you checked Meetup and/or NAMI for an in-person meeting group for people with mental health issues? I know I started going to a bipolar support group after I got out of the hospital and it was a goddamn godsend.Thanks for stopping by. Feel free to  whenever, there's usually multiple people willing to lend an ear (myself included).
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Mar 3, 2021 00:44
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RoboFrance_29 posted:Hey chokes (& others that share) thank you for the thread. I've been dealing with depression since 2016 and was diagnosed as bipolar II back in september when my psych tried to up the lexapro and moods went a-swingin'. Since then they killed the lexapro and swapped over to the mood-stabilizers but I feel like they've been making adjustments to meds every like 2 weeks and I don't know if anything's getting better. I was in a mental hospital last month because I was having suicidal ideations and the hospital psych made a lot of changes; switched me off lamictal to depakote, kept the seroquel & buspar, & re-added the lexapro. thanks for sharing here, sounds like it may not have been easy. it's cool that you see the dynamics between you and your wife, make sure you let her know that you witness her and see the "burden" (i hate that idea) she's carrying. that will go a long way. if ur very shy now is a great time to take advantage of zoom groups and zoom sessions because for very anxious people it's a ton easier than going into a room or office. sorry for all the unsolicited advice
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Mar 4, 2021 00:26
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How do I get diagnosed with depression what do I do i just got insurance for the first time in my adult life and was too afraid to use my parents’ for mental health things e: do I go on the insurance website and book a psychiatrist? is that the most expedient way? wolfs has issued a correction as of 06:00 on Mar 6, 2021 |
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Mar 6, 2021 05:55
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wolfs posted:How do I get diagnosed with depression what do I do Yeah you can go through your insurance's website to find psychiatrists to call and set up an appointment. My provider's site sucked poo poo though so I called their help line and they gave me the info of some that were in area, in network, and taking new patients.
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Mar 6, 2021 08:06
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wolfs posted:e: do I go on the insurance website and book a psychiatrist? is that the most expedient way? depending on what your insurance is, which i'm not going to get into, if you're allowed to refer yourself to mental health care, you can look for the psychs who take your insurance* (as they self-report) on https://www.psychologytoday.com/us My provider's site also sucked poo poo and I was only able to get in touch with a psychiatrist by a referral from my PCP who is in a larger hospital system. my insurance would let me pick and see my own psych, but i couldn't find any taking new patients. separately though, i was also able to get a neuropsychological evaluation done which also got me a second diagnosis. that was 8* hours of testing over 4 days (that you can complete earlier if you're quick about it) and waiting a few weeks for the report to be written. i found my regular talk therapist and the evaluating psych through psychology today. HarmB has issued a correction as of 10:01 on Mar 6, 2021 |
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Mar 6, 2021 09:56
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Goddammit, I cannot wait to get out of this house and away from my soon to be ex-wife. We said in the beginning that we'd be amicable and friendly, and I've tried really hard to be. It's not been easy and I've slipped, but it feels like she never made any particular effort to actually stick to that. I'm at the point where I'm miserable and just counting the days. I hate this part of my life.
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Mar 7, 2021 01:18
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real cool to get rejected on a rental application because my credit score is slightly too low good thing I live in the land of the free instead of some horrible country that uses social credit (i'm not even in debt lol)
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Mar 7, 2021 22:31
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My partner and myself are in the middle of purchasing a house through a USDA loan. The process is so long and stressful with added pressures and stipulations from having a government loan. I'm the one who is in charge of doing most of the work (making calls, signing papers, etc.) and I'm just so loving burnt out. All the closing costs and repairs required by USDA are piling up and we won't have an appraiser out to even determine if the house is worth our offer for another month. We don't have another lease lined up so if this falls through, we are homeless. I had a meltdown at work during a 14 hour shift and I was just informed that if we keep picking up extra shifts, we will fall out of the "low income" bracket, and no longer qualify. Anyway, I have 2 nosebleeds per day from stress and cry in the walk-in on a daily basis.
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Mar 7, 2021 22:54
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Ball Tazeman posted:Anyway, I have 2 nosebleeds per day from stress and cry in the walk-in on a daily basis. This happened to a co-worker of mine and his blood pressure was 300/180
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Mar 7, 2021 23:30
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SchnorkIes posted:This happened to a co-worker of mine and his blood pressure was 300/180 tight
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Mar 7, 2021 23:32
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Life is going pretty well for me really and I am on anti depressants now that seem to take away the sadness/hopelessness but I still feel pretty listless and unmotivated, just not crying and shutting down about it now. I might see about getting back on ADHD meds in a couple days. 
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Mar 8, 2021 03:13
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SchnorkIes posted:This happened to a co-worker of mine and his blood pressure was 300/180 hootin and hollerin on his way out of the clinic 
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Mar 8, 2021 08:04
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Zurtilik posted:Life is going pretty well for me really and I am on anti depressants now that seem to take away the sadness/hopelessness but I still feel pretty listless and unmotivated, just not crying and shutting down about it now. That seems like a common situation these days. What are you doing for work if you dont mind me asking?
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Mar 10, 2021 03:37
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thehandtruck posted:That seems like a common situation these days. What are you doing for work if you dont mind me asking? I do claims for a trucking company. For the most part it is pretty low demand to be honest. I can get by with a couple hours of work a day. Can get a little draining dealing with truckers get hosed all of the time though.
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Mar 10, 2021 13:33
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So I got the moderna shot 4 days ago. Since then I have felt really moody, like extreme mood swings getting into psychotic arguements with friends. Is this a known side effect?
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Mar 15, 2021 00:09
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The best part of having rapid cycling bipolar and almost every personality disorder is how every day my mood is a roll of the dice. Yesterday was great, today is awful. MOVIE MAJICK posted:So I got the moderna shot 4 days ago. Since then I have felt really moody, like extreme mood swings getting into psychotic arguements with friends. Is this a known side effect? that's strange, maybe ask a pharmacist or someone else who might know the side effects
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Mar 15, 2021 05:05
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MOVIE MAJICK posted:So I got the moderna shot 4 days ago. Since then I have felt really moody, like extreme mood swings getting into psychotic arguements with friends. Is this a known side effect? MY WIFE has the same problems. With her, it wasn't so much the physical effects so much as the massive stress release of starting her immunity to COVID triggering swings. I mean, there's still studies to be done on this poo poo, so you never know. My gut reaction is it's environmental and not the shot itself, but I am not a doctor and just an idiot on the internet
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Mar 15, 2021 16:29
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note to self: even if its the only book on your phone and you're incredibly bored at work, having brain problems about difficulty relating to other people is not the correct headspace to read Peter Watts
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Mar 18, 2021 02:15
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StashAugustine posted:note to self: even if its the only book on your phone and you're incredibly bored at work, having brain problems about difficulty relating to other people is not the correct headspace to read Peter Watts look at it this way, it may be so that your weird brain qualifies you as one of the only people in the world just right for the job of making first contact with aliens.
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Mar 18, 2021 02:25
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just moved to Seattle after having lived in rural NC almost my whole life. I’ve never felt even close to this overwhelmed and anxious
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Mar 21, 2021 01:19
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DoubleDonut posted:just moved to Seattle after having lived in rural NC almost my whole life. I’ve never felt even close to this overwhelmed and anxious I had the same experience when I moved to NYC in my early 20s. It will get much easier after a while.
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Mar 21, 2021 21:26
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It's funny everyone is moving. I myself am moving from Austin to Providence (Rhode Island) by the end of the year. Bowie once said of Los Angeles "the place should be wiped off the loving map" and I didn't understand that sentiment until I lived in Austin for several years
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Mar 22, 2021 18:21
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I might be moving to austin soon. What's wrong with Austin?
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Mar 23, 2021 03:41
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Austin is great and awful. Think of it like Texas's 'cool' party town. It jumped the shark long ago, yet plenty of fun to be had.
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Mar 23, 2021 03:43
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anyone got a basic guide to meditation they can recommend? I may as well try it because it's gonna be a little bit before my new health insurance kicks in and I can find a new therapist going from an easy on-call night job to a normal job for grown adults is loving hard DoubleDonut has issued a correction as of 06:15 on Mar 23, 2021 |
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Mar 23, 2021 06:12
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MOVIE MAJICK posted:I might be moving to austin soon. What's wrong with Austin? everything 1) hold no illusions Austin is a metropolis, it's not. It's a downtown area surrounded by a sprawl of towns they collectively call "austin" for reasons I'll never understand 2) live in the south, there's a berlin wall of traffic between downtown and north austin and you will never see any activity requiring travel 3) idk maybe you'll like it but this city has tried to kill me four times and nearly succeeded twice DoubleDonut posted:anyone got a basic guide to meditation they can recommend? I may as well try it because it's gonna be a little bit before my new health insurance kicks in and I can find a new therapist If you have a phone and $10 a month to spare, Headspace is fantastic.
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Mar 23, 2021 17:12
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DoubleDonut posted:anyone got a basic guide to meditation they can recommend? I may as well try it because it's gonna be a little bit before my new health insurance kicks in and I can find a new therapist Palousemindfulness.com has a few guided meditations and is completely free.
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Mar 23, 2021 19:18
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thanks for the recommendations, I'll check them out. Christ, though. I've gone straight from "neither one particularly appeals to me" straight back to "actively wanting to die all of the time" again and it sucks. Partly I think I just need to stop working for the court but I'm not sure what else I could do besides get another degree. Getting an accounting degree might be reasonable but I'm scared to even make decisions anymore these days
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Mar 24, 2021 04:20
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I graduated from a therapy program this week and feel really good compared to a few months ago when I started. up next for me: getting help for substance abuse
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Mar 24, 2021 04:29
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Consummate Professional posted:I graduated from a therapy program this week and feel really good compared to a few months ago when I started. Congrats on graduating your program! Grace is a big part of recovery; wishing you the best of luck on your journey.
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Mar 24, 2021 19:21
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Consummate Professional posted:I graduated from a therapy program this week and feel really good compared to a few months ago when I started. Hell yeah. Good luck with the second part, I hope it goes well.
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Mar 25, 2021 05:59
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