Blackchamber posted:

I envy the people who fell in love and are still are with that person.

I was seeing a girl that I knew was in a long distance relationship. I don't know how long we had been seeing each other when this happened, but one day at work I started thinking about how I wanted to be her boyfriend officially. The thought of her being with someone else suddenly made me physically sick. I really felt like I was going to throw up and thankfully I wasn't working alone because mid conversation with my coworker I just turned around and rushed to the back and started dry heaving in the backroom leaving them to watch the store. I stayed back there like 10 or 15 minutes crying and dry-heaving on the floor. It finally passed when I decided that I was going to make her dump the other guy. Then I felt much much better, but very nervous and really anxious to see her again.

I'd had girlfriends before this, but that was my 'first love' I guess. Added bonus, when we didn't work out I was even more physically sick about it.

The second time was a real mind-gently caress because with the girl above we had a pregnancy scare once and all I could think was that my life was over and that I wasn't ready. When the new girl told me she had a miscarriage I was really devastated by it and I felt like I really missed out on something and I wasn't any more ready then than I was before. That's when I really knew I was in love with her, and wanted a future with her and kids and all that poo poo. It wasn't a scary idea to me, it made me happy. poo poo didn't work out with her either ultimately and I had to have some serious counseling after that.